The beginning of the end for me as I know it

Have you ever felt that no matter what you accomplish will never measure to nothing. Like the situation you are in is just stable enough so that you don’t hit the brick of no return. You feel your sanity drifting away. And as you hold tight to what you have next. You try to reach out but the only one’s who you think is the ones whom don’t necessary mean you harm but could care less about your ordeal. That doesn’t mean their evil. It just means they have enough on their plate. This is a problem you have been having since you can remember. They saw the signs all along and did nothing. So you stop talking and focus on you since you have enough commonsense to know their is something bothering you, and because it has for such a long time, no listen. Your personality becomes combative to all. You don’t go out picking and choosing friends. You could care less. You choose to have a very small circle- or, none at all. The way you see things is depressing, over the top and agitative. You ask yourself, I am the cause of my life problems. For me, I would say so. There’s a lot of things I did to my self and others. I take the blame. I don’t I want sympathy nor remorse. Whatever karma I deserve Ill take and run with it. I’m I depressed now, yes. I thought I knew what I was doing but it’s obvious I don’t. I even have the notion to try to share what I know, which is nothing. There is nothing unique nor special about me like I thought. I am me, James Fletcher Jr. On the brink and ready to sky drive. So miserable…….